I think I'II give her a call to see if she's up
It's kinda late but you know it wouldn't surprise me
If I get her machine again
You see there's a problem I have
And have had for a long, long time
I wish I was blind as a bat
Cause no matter where I'm at
I can see her standing there
I'm still looking for answers
Maybe I can do better
Or maybe this is where I'll be for all eternity
This is a torture of sorts
I've seen the reports of my demise
But don't feel sorry for me
It's not like I can see at all
She's the best thing I've had
And have had for a long, long time
But I'm just a freak with a gift
Living in a paradigm shift
My world is changing everywhere
I'm still looking for answers
Maybe I can do better
Or maybe this is where I'll be for all eternity
I'm still looking for answers
Maybe I can do better
Or maybe this is it for me
This is where I'll be for all eternity
I'm not opposed to being alone, the needle is stuck
My penance was made by my run out of luck
And I don't suppose you'd consider changing your mind
I promise you it will be different this time
And I don't have nothin' to bring to the table
Oh no matter what I say
I'll be here forever - Forever will be today
I'm still looking for answers
Maybe I can do better
Or maybe this is where I'll be for all eternity
I'm still looking for answers
Maybe I can do better
Or maybe this is it for me
This is where I'll be for all eternity
I'm still looking for answers
I'm still looking for answers
I'm still looking for answers
Cunning, Baffling, Powerful
Been beaten to a pulp
Vigorous, Irresistable
Sick and tired and laid low
Dominating, Invincible
Black-out, loss of control
Overwhelming, Unquenchable
I'm powerless, have to let go
I can't escape it
It leaves me frail and worn
Can no longer take it
Senses tattered and torn
Hopeless surrender
Obsession's got me beat
Losing the will to live
Admitting complete defeat
Fatal Descent
Spinning around
I've gone too far
To turn back round
Desperate attempt
Stop the progression
At any length
Lift this obsession
Crawling to my glass prison
A place where no one knows
My secret lonely world begins
So much safer here
A place where I can go
To forget about my daily sins
Life here in my glass prison
A place I once called home
Fall in nocturnal bliss again
Chasing a long lost friend
I no longer can control
Just waiting for this hopelessness to end
II. RESTORATION
Run - fast from the wreckage of the past
A shattered glass prison wall behind me
Fight - past walking through the ashes
A distant oasis before me
Cry - desperate crawling on my knees
Begging God to please stop the insanity
Help me - I'm trying to believe
Stop wallowing in my self pity
"We've been waiting for you my friend
The writing's been on the wall
All it takes is a little faith
You know you're the same as us all"
Help me - I can't break out this prison all alone
Save me - I'm drowning and I'm hopeless on my own
Heal me - I can't restore my sanity alone
Enter the door
Desperate
Fighting no more
Help me restore
To my sanity
At this temple of hope
I need to learn
Teach me how
Sorrow to burn
Help me return
To humanity
I'll be fearless and thorough
To enter this temple of hope
Believe
Transcend the pain
Living the life
Humility
Opened my eyes
This new odyssey
Of rigorous honesty
Serenity
That I never knew
Soundness of mind
Helped me to find
Courage to change
All the things that I can
"We'll help you perform this miracle
But you must set your past free
You dug the hole, but you can't bury your soul
Open your mind and you'll see"
Help me - I can't break out this prison all alone
Save me - I'm drowning and I'm hopeless on my own
Heal me - I can't restore my sanity alone
III. REVELATION
Way off in the distance I saw a door
I tried to open
I tried forcing with all of my will but still
The door wouldn't open
Unable to trust in my faith
I turned and walked away
I looked around, felt a chill in the air
Took my will and turned it over
The glass prison which once held me is gone
A long lost fortress
Armed only with liberty
And the key of my willingness
Fell down on my knees and prayed
"Thy will be done"
I turned around, saw a light shining through
The door was wide open
I Pack life in a suit case
I'm a lost case
You're just my illusion
Made of my wet dreams
It's all a confusion
A Diffusion
Why do I have to beg for your heart?